pages never read

Scrolling Instagram, a post read,

‘Take me back to the first night we met’

Thinking to myself how there isn’t anyone I’d want to meet again,

You stepped through the door, walked across my mind’s stage.

Meeting me in a duvet fort, engraved with sweaty endless smiles.

Caught like a lily pad floating at the top of my throat,

Imagining what it would be like to re-experience our first scene,

Draped over the sofa,

Like the silhouette of two butterflies

Fluttering nude, laughing.

I kissed you.

I can hear the pages turning

as this half-opened book dangles through my chest,

Like a sinking weight into my heart from shoulder to shoulder.

I’ll never forget you.

© Victoria Venturella, MA, Wait a Meta, Existential Dialogues

Inflorescence

Casanova, minas snow,

Prinophyllum,

Coral glow.

Opal luster,

Harvest moon.

Lavendula,

I’ll see you soon.

Midnight beauty,

Seven stars,

Red dazzled,

Meet me on mars.

Morning magic,

Cappuccino,

Sing me a song,

Only you know.

Ebony pearl,

Scarlet wonder,

You make my heart thump,

Is that thunder?

Silver skies,

Scintillation.

Is this a dream?

figment of my imagination?

Electric current,

Venetian chimes.

The deep gaze of your eyes.

Mi amor,

De ja vu,

It feels like I’ve always known you.

Metamorphosis,

Magnetic field,

What a gift the universe revealed.

Lamplighter,

Bluette,

Kiss me in this silhouette.

Epoch,

Buretta.

Endlessly evergreen,

Endlessly meta.

We already changed each other.

Rhododendron,

Existentia.

© Victoria Venturella, MA, Wait a Meta, Existential Dialogues

The Power of The Future Not Yet

There is a path from here to there paved in reels of undeveloped film.

You are the only one who will ever see it the way you experienced it.

You get to keep all the pictures.

You can choose which way to go

but you’ll never be for certain the future of not yet.

Life lives in mystery, love, and what’s not yet known.

The power of the future not yet.

© Victoria Venturella, MA, The Existentialist, Existential Dialogues

Meta Smiles

Someone smiles looking at you from across the room while you are already looking at them.

You immediately become cognizant of their smile.

Day’s pass,

The experience of their smile resurfaces.

You begin to think of them more deeply into a future moment.

This memory etched into a box of their photos.

Upon the minds shelf boxes of meaning stack high.

© Victoria Venturella, MA, The Existentialist, Existential Dialogues

#metasmiles

Gone long enough for home to feel foreign and familiar at the same time

Long enough to lose my rhythm,

Experience a completely new one.

When the space you created

Was with you anywhere you existed.

Being with what the experience is giving us.

Adaptation with known impermanence

Savor every unique sliver of those moments.

Your home is where you create it, but it starts

In your inner self.

Even your home can become foreign the longer you exist away from it,

Familiarity caught within all the things that have shifted for me.

Every corner reveals potentiality.

New visions are coming to me, ideas that must be written.

Home.

This is a place you create.

An empty canvas to slouch paint all over.

You build your shelter and continuously invent it.

You are the creator of your life.

Like a glimmer on a crystal rock,

Light brings out the sparkles from

Infinite angles.

© Victoria Venturella, MA, The Existentialist, Existential Dialogues

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We Already Know

Dropping in,

here we sit.

Present with such certainty.

You will feel someone love you just as hard.

You’ll never be too much.

Energy completely matched.

Mutual. Same page.

Perpetually pursued.

Like a parachute,

Expanding widely in your wind.

In a tree house,

dangling our feet,

the universe feels,

our gratitude.

Emerging,

Spilling over my cup,

My saucer,

My heart.

Vividly living

the prime of your life.

All those relationships didn’t work out so you can experience the one that will.

© Victoria Venturella, MA, The Existentialist, Existential Dialogues

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Victoria Venturella, MA, Existential Phenomenological Psychotherapist

My heart.

Even dogs leave us too soon

It doesn’t feel good to feel your heart hurting.

You give yourself to the universe knowing your heart will be broken over and over again. To experience the full breadth of love.

Even dogs leave us too soon.

A life without letting yourself feel fully doesn’t feel any better.

If you proceed into whatever will be without holding back, you may experience something that it is significantly different than the rest.

Where the potency of its knowing, seeing, hearing, being with, enlivens you.

The power of the future not yet.

What if the best experiences of your life are still not yet lived?

It might hit you one day. Out of nowhere.

You are in the living room tying your shoes.

You hear them coming closer, their bare feet across the cherry wood hall.

Dancing in silence, as if your favorite song was on, their scent lingers.

Enamored, in awe, you acknowledge this is the human you built this all with.

People arrive and you have no idea when they will be here.

What are you waiting for?

Go on, lean in.

Why are you saving to feel this later?

You may outlive your dog but what if you never felt that much love?

It is better to have felt the full breadth of love then to protect yourself from feeling heart break?

There will always be tragedy in life. Live your life vibrantly.

Knowing what it feels like to love something this much, mirrors the beauty in living.

How could you experience the fullness of what love has to offer if you only bring a part of you in?

What does going all in look like for you?

What are you afraid of happening if you let yourself love them fully?

How long do we teeter on the edge of something that offers us much more?

If you believe the mystery ahead is special, it will be.

#mindset

#whatyoutellyourselfmatters

#letyourselflovefully

#livividly

© Victoria Venturella, Existential Dialogues, The Existentialist

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Victoria Venturella, MA, Existential Phenomenological Psychotherapist, LMHCA